How do you check yourself? What part did you play in your rape incident? 9. Are you aware of the wounded parts of yourself?

Yes, I’m stuck with these wounds, I have nightmares about my wounds. As a rape victim, what part did I play in being raped? What part did I contribute to being assaulted in my own bed? My wounds are what distract me from forgiving myself and moving forward to motherhood!

11. Make a list of parts of you that are hurt and how they show up in your everyday interactions.

My entire body is in pain. My back hurts because of the way my body is positioned in my car. My uterus hurts because I connect through sex, I try to have one sexual partner at a time. The biggest mistake is fucking them before getting to know them. My stomach hurts because I don't eat properly. My stomach also hurts because I wish I could be pregnant again, wishing I would have continued my pregnancy without the father. My lungs hurt because I started vaping again, another way to cope with living in poverty. I had an asthma attack and had to be prescribed an inhaler again. My mouth hurts because I verbally assault people with my words when I’m angry. My head hurts because I am always mad! Forcing myself to work daily, clocking into a world I hate, making below minimum wage. My feet hurt because I’m now walking ’30 Miles to Acceptance’, yelling for the world to see me, when they do, they anger and not the kindhearted person I really am. My world is filled with rain drops because I didn’t think after being a dedicated student I would be punished in the work field, hoping for jobs just to set myself up for financial freedom. All I’ve gotten in return is financial hardships.