Nyala tells Catriona about how she struggled to understand her new body after fully transitioning, and the impact that had on coming to terms with her trauma. She talks about what it was like to write a letter to her vagina for a book, titled Written on the Body: Letters from Trans and Non-Binary Survivors of Sexual Assault and Domestic Violence. She also talks about how staying inside, eating bad food and watching anime series helps her feel better on those tougher days. If you've been affected by sexual abuse or violence, you can find details of organisations in the UK who offer help and support at bbc.co.uk/actionline. Presented by Catriona Morton, After is a 10-part series, featuring discussions between survivors of sexual abuse and assault about what happened to them and how they cope now. Produced by Danielle Stephens. The Executive Producers are Clare Chadburn and Nick Minter. It is a Wisebuddah production for BBC Sounds.